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Me Chrissy
I'm a Seventh-Day Adventist
I'm not a girl, but not yet a woman. well ya, I'm a person really easy going, sometimes it changed so sensitive. I'm a kindergarten Teacher, I'd choosed my life's purpose is my God's Purpose. because He's my Author for Alpha and Omega. Proud the be His servant. one more important thing, I'm a youngest sister in six siblings. I love my Mummy damn much!
today, our last school for this year of 2012, me and my children went to the hall and give them a reheasel for their Graduation this coming monday. yesterday, meet their parents for giving them a children's report card. interesting uh? a kindergarten also have a report card every sem. of course, that the advantages for our school being a private sector as a kindergarten. credit for my head master, encompasses our mrs Pastor. she gives me a lot of a new knowledge about education indeed. I'd gained many things from her. halleluyah for my Heavenly Father! because of Him until now our school still endured. what a big blessings ever! some more, we still in progress to disseminate the form of registration for next year, but by the blessings from our Heavenly Father He's opened the greatest way through our children, the other parents saw that our children have a improvement for their children's achievements. what a blessing ever^^.
our children. as picture shown above. this is their's picture, you can't imagined how stress we are to regulate them to take this picture. haha. this is a thousand times we take a picture repeatedly. but, it's okay. Thankful because they still can listen and obey to us as their Teachers. this is only a half blessings for today^^.
okay, if you still want to continue your reading, it's up to my dears^^. *no one can push you* but, I'm glad if you're enjoying this entry.
I just got news from my dady (neo), he's works at Institure Medical Research at Kuala Lumpur. he had been posted there as a mosquito breeder. haha. I don't really clear about his work actual, he told me that he's research the medicine to cure the disease causes of a mosquito. and bla bla.. I don't even know about that. but, I hope instead he'll doing well for his career. but that's not a main point, my main point is.. He still be able going to church on Sabbath day. what blessings again? Thank you so much Lord! God has been prepared a good purposed in Neo's life.
yes. he is.
that was a blessed by God. He answers our prayers through in His times.
another blessings!
just now I'm logging in my Facebook, not for chatting okay. but just want to check my important message instead. what is it? from Dean Kimara, who helps me to create my music for my first gospel song, he told me I'll tell you later when the minus one is ready. what a grateful had been filled my whole heart right now. somebody says that the hardest thing to do is starting the FIRST STEP! yes, I admit it too. my first impression when I'm getting know that the music in progress, WOW! I already step over the FIRST STEP! Dean Kimara is a talented musician I ever known, he could plays almost all the musical instruments, I just know playing Violin, Guitar and Piano. but all those are in beginner musician. it's too hard okay, so that I'm giving credit to Dean Kimara.
Mr. Dean Kimara (Right side)
sorry Dean, I took your picture without your permission.hehe. but I'm totally want to say thank you for helping me to make my dream comes true.
my next blessing is about SHE. she? who is she? my sista Rejlen James, she is the one who insipred me to launch my own album for helping church's funds.
Rejlen James (Oyen)
another apologize for this owner image.hehe yes, she is.. oppz! before I forgot. she's also my Family-to-be. sister-in-law^^. if that is a God's willing. *lain sudah cerita pula*. she told me that she will visit us in Beluran. what a kinda creepy news? haha. bukannya apa, just pity to her. our home! em! pretty scary home..haha. nothing can describe it.hehe. sister Rejlen, thanks for these gifts yaa..
blessing is non-stop as long as often you're in God.
there you guys, did you already view my entry about my first song that I compose it by myself? If not, you might like to view it *thank you* before I start to tell you about my life being a composer,I would like to praise my Lord, because he's my source of inspiration.when I lounge in the living room, An idea to be a composer. then, I knelt to start my prayer to God, I ask Him to give me a talent being a composer. hence, He answers my pray through my hard work to learn how to compose a new gospel song. *Thank you so much my Heavenly Father*
okay here you go. my song entitled : Masa Mudaku my caption for this song : this song are related with my life indeed, when I was young ( now,still young also ) I mean, my faith was too weak when my age not enough to build a great faith. nowadays, as you knew.. a teenagers won't give all their decision to God, when their decision wasn't give them a better life, they will start to blame on God. Let me be honest, that was me. (before I talk about something bad) continue my point here. *enjoy this sayangs*
okay.. it's up to you now. u want to listen it or not^^ I just keeping memories alive here. sorry, I didn't have the minus one for this song, in progress by someone actual. thanks for giving me hand to complete this song. I just put on wishlist "launch CD album" I really hope for it God^^
lyric : begitu banyak yang tlah ku lalui menyakiti Tuhanku dan kluargaku manakah arah yang harus kulalui oh pintaku.... ampunkan aku... detik-detik masa pun berlalu tanpa mengira waktu yang dulu aku berfikir tidak ada kasih-Mu ku akan mati di dalam dosa. chorus : masa mudaku yang lalai dihanyut nafsu dunia segala perbuatanku sia-sia di depan mata Tuhan ku sadari perbuatanku itu oh Tuhan... ku tersungkur dihadapan-Mu... hidup yang baru aku jalani meninggalkan hidup lama yang dulu aku bersyukur punya kasih dari-Nya kini aku.. menyerahkan segalanya.. lets say "amen" together. thanks for watching ^^ *a big claps* (feel free? just drop ur comment to improve my song)
I hate "not achieved" words, but that is a real of life. seriously, I hate being a loser! everyone ever feel like I did. On October, church's activities at Keningau. The event is a temperance day.
I just participated in singing contest and create poems. The song composed by Jailly. entitled : Insan Yang Sihat. such a beautiful song. But I ruined the song! why? because I didn't practiced harder on it! what I'd learned is, never present any sort of songs if I didn't practiced harder!
now, just full filled by regretful and shyness. why? because I forgot the lyrics and the melody current I singing on the stage, and that's too obvious and ashamed! learn from your mistake Chrissy. Okay, about my poems. let me show you :
TUBUH
SIHAT ADALAH BERKAT
Aku menyusuri lorong kehidupan,
Melangkah longlai di jalan yang kelam,
Penuh debu, kotoran yang melekit
membusuk
Menusuk ke rongga pemikiran yang samar
Tika dulu kau penawar
Mencoret sejarah dalam bidang perubatan
Penyelamat tika kesakitan.
Namun kini,
bak racun yang mengalir, bagai jarum ditusuk..
pedih, perit kau beri
kulihat dua manusia
di atas pentas yang sama,
tapi lakonan watak berbeza,
persis terukir di wajahnya,
‘aku lepasan pengajian tinggi’
‘aku manusia berkerjaya’ dengan asap yang berarak di bibir mu
Bagiku,
Kau bukan lepasan pusat pengajian tinggi
Tapi lepasan pusat serenti,
Seperti Musa dan air susu ibunya,
Kemanapun arus membawa kehidupanmu,
Air susu ibu sumber hidupmu,
Tadahan tangan besar ruangnya,
Tadahan pilihan banyak pengaruhnya,
Tapi berbeza riwayatnya,
Akankah bugar sanubarinya?
Ya, jika semua menjadi bersih.
Tubuh sihat, badan cergas
Segak bergaya bak ayam jantan tiada celahnya,
Segala kemampuan dikeluarkan demi
kesihatan sempurna,
Tetapi seperti burung gagak terbang menguap,
Tatapan mata hati pada tubuh tanpa seutas benang,
Semuanya sia-sia belaka
Mulanya dari diri, keluarga, seterusnya masyrakat,
Khabar yang baik harus dikongsi dan dituruti,
Panduan yang terbaik berasal dari Tuhan yang Maha Esa,
Kaabah yang hidup adalah tubuh,
Memelihara menjadi amanah setiap manusia.
I create this poem within just 2 hours! why? because I like to delay my works. ya, that is fool me. and I didn't won this contest. actually, it is really drives me weak. I hate being a loser saya bilang tu! but Chris you're indeed eligible to deserve it. *those are my unachievement*
okay, swing my mode go to honey mode^^.
last October, we've a "Mega Seminar" at Ulu Dusun church. by Pastor Samuel from Indonesia. his picture. The "cute" one.
Pastor Samuel and Pastor Bendah.
the great pastor^^.
Pastor Samuel is the speaker for the Mega Seminar event. such a beautiful day with Pastor Samuel, even though, he never know me. just shake hand with him. miss you Pastor.^^.
and the closing of our Mega Seminar, we've a mini concert. and we've a guests from rugading Kota Belud. their group named Golden Light. I don't have their picture. sorry. but I have their MP3. such a beautiful voice, indeed.
on the mini convert, I'm one of the praise team.
furthermore, a baptism be held too.
my father was one of the baptized at that time, he wanted to clean and renewed his faith in God's eyes. my father is the best father, but he is not a perfect father.
when he hugs me, I cried.
Thank you my Heavenly Father.
You answered me through my prayer.
all this while, I pray for my father. keep praying for him. really hard pray for him till at the one point, I couldn't even bear my sins towards my father. I down, and stop praying for him. because in my prayer, his name always be in. but day by day, nothing was changed, that's why I stop praying for him.
Our Heavenly Father sees my father better than me, so that He makes his purpose in His time. God, forgive me.
the next story, I liked to become a composer.
but I don't know how to launch that, because I don't know how to make the minus one for my song. from my Facebook, I just requested them to help for that. and thank, because have someone give his hands for me^^. God, please give me this talent. I really want it for serving and praising your name.
Entitled : Hati yang berdosa.
the owner : Chrissy J.
composer : pen, paper, voice recorder, and my voice.
sign 1:your sleep patterns change,you feel restless but seem to have energy.
sign 2:shivers, crawling sensations, tingles on your scalp, feeling pressure on your crown, like someone is pushing down with a finger. flashes of great inspiration etc..feeling vibration around the head and ears.
sign 3:sudden waves of emotion. feeling sad, lonely, happy, angry etc for no reason.don't be hard on yourself. acknowledge as they arise and let them go with <3
sign 4:old issues keep coming back and at times you feel very lost, this is necessary & deeply cleansing.
sign 5:your physical body can change. your eating habits become more healthy.
sign 6:your senses increase in their sensitivity. your 6th sense opens up and you become much more aware of subtle energies.these are signs of spirit & your guides.
never fear!
sign 7: you begin to see the world with new eyes. you feel loving and at one with everything.
sign 8:you'll desire more and more to break free of restrictive patterns & old habits that do not serve you anymore.
sign 9:you begin to notice more & more signs that speak directly to you on a very profound level.
sign 10:synchronicity flows faster.these wonderful events flow when you are on the right path.
*sigh* u know how feel when you're had fighting with somebody? it is too annoyed! when I got the horrible feeling. I'll keep silent, that's me. I won't tell anybody. but in this case, I told my Neo. he knows me well, sometimes he gonna gives me some advise to keep patient. like usually the other people out there say "I'M HUMAN BEING TOO".. So do I. but its too horrible, when I've had fighting with my own FAMILY! am I so rude? ya, I and my oldest sister. may be I'm not gonna mention the reason why we're fighting each other. but what I can say here, I lost my patient. actually, my older and oldest sister. they've been argue me. If u were be me? did you always want be like that? emm.. probably they're kidding. but it too much. she says I'm her stipendiary. am I too annoying? till they dare say like that towards me?I knew, I'm not good enough to be their youngest sister. I don't have any an achievement to make them proud of me! ya ya ya.. I can go away from this house and go continue my education. but I knew our family's problem. I don't even have a diploma certificate or degree. just SPM.. that's why you all can argue me?I can go far with my SPM certificate.. but I want our family's burden getting more easy. I think I'm not sacrifice. just do the right way. okay, for a one day we don't even make a conversation. look each other. no way! when she came towards me, I will go the right side. I won't stand in front of her, then show that I'm upset. yes! I'm ego person. . . . . I do that because I already lost my patient.
what the thing make me realize. . .
holy bible. my light way.
indeed, I'm not good enough being bible reader. in one day, sometimes i didn't read my bible. (admit it honestly).but now I try my best,take a time to read my bible. I'll tell you how this thing make me realize. perhaps, among us couldn't see the benefits of words-of-God. when I read this verse
Hebrews 10:24-25
" and let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works:
not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some;
but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as ye see the day
approaching"
Ibrani 10:24-25
" dan marilah kita saling memperhatikan supaya kita saling
mendorong dalam kasih dan dalam pekerjaan baik.
janganlah kita menjauhkan diri dari pertemuan-pertemuan ibadah kita,
seperti dibiasakan oleh beberapa orang, tetapi marilah kita saling menasihati,
dan semakin giat melakukannya menjelang hari Tuhan yang mendekat"
"mendorong dalam kasih" just like y'all know that God works in Love. after I read that verse then I answered a few questions. before that, I pray on my bed. I locked my door. then I start my prayer. but I can't even say a one word. my tears start came out from eyes. I couldn't even reach my mind. then, I feel I'm so small, tiny etc ... after that, I realize that I'm full of sins in my soul. I crying aloud, without any sound. you can imagine my situation? pity myself... I knee down. bow my head. and cry!!! regretful inside my soul. I make myself calm down, then start a prayer. my soul felt too warm. never been much better. I'm damn happy!!! now, we can laugh together.
fall in love. . . nothing is more practical than finding God, than falling in love. in a quite absolute, final way. what you are in love with. what seizes your imagination, will affect everything it will decide. what will get you out of bed in the morning? what you do with your evenings? how you spend your weekends? what you read? whom you know? what breaks your heart? and what amaze you with joy and gratitude? all those questions, seems so simple but hard to answer. . . then, fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything! God either stayed in love to created all his creation.. how amazing His love for each of us..
I feel 2 months waiting its a quite hard for me, but the most hard task when what we've planned is not going well. how matter is it, I won't give up. because I knew God always stay in my way. He will make a way for me. I keep that words. next week,it will be my holiday. school's holiday, so that I'm really damn happy when holiday comes out. firstly, I'd planned want go to Keningau, but there's seems not a right decision because by the same time, Training LE also held on the same month. so, I'd changed my plan,I will go to the Seminar.indeed. but now, everything was change. I couldn't even go anywhere! I have a quite stress, cause of my frustration is I MISS BEING LITERATURE EVANGELIST! that's the main point. since I'd decided that I'll be Teacher, seems I'll lost something. day by day, I can feel it more clearly. yes, indeed! I lost something. that thing is too valuable for me. If I can heard God's voice, I'll follow Him whenever and wherever He asks it for me, but how can it be? Lord, I want be Your loyal servant even I'm the great sinner, You always be my greatest Father...
FAST student doesn't mean the faster student. I mean, em.. how I can explain it to you. something about spiritual and gospel. the activity is to memorize the verse from bible. have one verse, and two key words.and I'm interested with it. I've had done my first lesson from verse Jeremiah 31:3. let me show you the verse.
Jeremiah31:3
The LORD hath appeared of old unto me. Saying, Yea, I have loved
thee with an everlasting love : therefore with lovingkindness
have I drawn thee
Yeremia 31:3
dari jauh TUHAN menampakkan diri kepadanya,
Aku mengasihi engkau dengan kasih yang kekal,
sebab itu Aku melanjutkan kasih setiaKu kepadamu
that is amazing verse and words from God, He's so good all the time. and I've memorize this. yes, I did it well. hehe.. now, I'm the beginner at level 1 (survival kit), our admin for this an activity at church, her name is Slyvia Alfred, she's unemployer now, u know why ? because she comes back to Sabah, just wanted to give us this good opportunity, saluted her! she has her own objective for God's work. may God bless her! thank u very much.
okay now, let me tell you what mean if FAST actual.
I appreciate everything about me, even about my nails, eyebrows and an each a little things had given to me by my Father. I've a lot spend my time in singing, I really do love singing.playing an instrumental things, my second choices. a moment that I feel so horrible, when I sing along with the music, I lose my beats. haha. one day, I'll go to the heaven. now, I'm waiting and keep my eyes on Almighty God. Readers, I want you to be my family when we are get together in the HEAVEN. say AMEN !
blessings : Part 1
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
wazzup-wazzup!
today, our last school for this year of 2012, me and my children went to the hall and give them a reheasel for their Graduation this coming monday. yesterday, meet their parents for giving them a children's report card. interesting uh? a kindergarten also have a report card every sem. of course, that the advantages for our school being a private sector as a kindergarten. credit for my head master, encompasses our mrs Pastor. she gives me a lot of a new knowledge about education indeed. I'd gained many things from her. halleluyah for my Heavenly Father! because of Him until now our school still endured. what a big blessings ever! some more, we still in progress to disseminate the form of registration for next year, but by the blessings from our Heavenly Father He's opened the greatest way through our children, the other parents saw that our children have a improvement for their children's achievements. what a blessing ever^^.
our children. as picture shown above. this is their's picture, you can't imagined how stress we are to regulate them to take this picture. haha. this is a thousand times we take a picture repeatedly. but, it's okay. Thankful because they still can listen and obey to us as their Teachers. this is only a half blessings for today^^.
okay, if you still want to continue your reading, it's up to my dears^^. *no one can push you* but, I'm glad if you're enjoying this entry.
I just got news from my dady (neo), he's works at Institure Medical Research at Kuala Lumpur. he had been posted there as a mosquito breeder. haha. I don't really clear about his work actual, he told me that he's research the medicine to cure the disease causes of a mosquito. and bla bla.. I don't even know about that. but, I hope instead he'll doing well for his career. but that's not a main point, my main point is.. He still be able going to church on Sabbath day. what blessings again? Thank you so much Lord! God has been prepared a good purposed in Neo's life.
yes. he is.
that was a blessed by God. He answers our prayers through in His times.
another blessings!
just now I'm logging in my Facebook, not for chatting okay. but just want to check my important message instead. what is it? from Dean Kimara, who helps me to create my music for my first gospel song, he told me I'll tell you later when the minus one is ready. what a grateful had been filled my whole heart right now. somebody says that the hardest thing to do is starting the FIRST STEP! yes, I admit it too. my first impression when I'm getting know that the music in progress, WOW! I already step over the FIRST STEP! Dean Kimara is a talented musician I ever known, he could plays almost all the musical instruments, I just know playing Violin, Guitar and Piano. but all those are in beginner musician. it's too hard okay, so that I'm giving credit to Dean Kimara.
Mr. Dean Kimara (Right side)
sorry Dean, I took your picture without your permission.hehe. but I'm totally want to say thank you for helping me to make my dream comes true.
my next blessing is about SHE. she? who is she? my sista Rejlen James, she is the one who insipred me to launch my own album for helping church's funds.
Rejlen James (Oyen)
another apologize for this owner image.hehe yes, she is.. oppz! before I forgot. she's also my Family-to-be. sister-in-law^^. if that is a God's willing. *lain sudah cerita pula*. she told me that she will visit us in Beluran. what a kinda creepy news? haha. bukannya apa, just pity to her. our home! em! pretty scary home..haha. nothing can describe it.hehe. sister Rejlen, thanks for these gifts yaa..
blessing is non-stop as long as often you're in God.
there you guys, did you already view my entry about my first song that I compose it by myself? If not, you might like to view it *thank you* before I start to tell you about my life being a composer,I would like to praise my Lord, because he's my source of inspiration.when I lounge in the living room, An idea to be a composer. then, I knelt to start my prayer to God, I ask Him to give me a talent being a composer. hence, He answers my pray through my hard work to learn how to compose a new gospel song. *Thank you so much my Heavenly Father*
okay here you go. my song entitled : Masa Mudaku my caption for this song : this song are related with my life indeed, when I was young ( now,still young also ) I mean, my faith was too weak when my age not enough to build a great faith. nowadays, as you knew.. a teenagers won't give all their decision to God, when their decision wasn't give them a better life, they will start to blame on God. Let me be honest, that was me. (before I talk about something bad) continue my point here. *enjoy this sayangs*
okay.. it's up to you now. u want to listen it or not^^ I just keeping memories alive here. sorry, I didn't have the minus one for this song, in progress by someone actual. thanks for giving me hand to complete this song. I just put on wishlist "launch CD album" I really hope for it God^^
lyric : begitu banyak yang tlah ku lalui menyakiti Tuhanku dan kluargaku manakah arah yang harus kulalui oh pintaku.... ampunkan aku... detik-detik masa pun berlalu tanpa mengira waktu yang dulu aku berfikir tidak ada kasih-Mu ku akan mati di dalam dosa. chorus : masa mudaku yang lalai dihanyut nafsu dunia segala perbuatanku sia-sia di depan mata Tuhan ku sadari perbuatanku itu oh Tuhan... ku tersungkur dihadapan-Mu... hidup yang baru aku jalani meninggalkan hidup lama yang dulu aku bersyukur punya kasih dari-Nya kini aku.. menyerahkan segalanya.. lets say "amen" together. thanks for watching ^^ *a big claps* (feel free? just drop ur comment to improve my song)
I hate "not achieved" words, but that is a real of life. seriously, I hate being a loser! everyone ever feel like I did. On October, church's activities at Keningau. The event is a temperance day.
I just participated in singing contest and create poems. The song composed by Jailly. entitled : Insan Yang Sihat. such a beautiful song. But I ruined the song! why? because I didn't practiced harder on it! what I'd learned is, never present any sort of songs if I didn't practiced harder!
now, just full filled by regretful and shyness. why? because I forgot the lyrics and the melody current I singing on the stage, and that's too obvious and ashamed! learn from your mistake Chrissy. Okay, about my poems. let me show you :
TUBUH
SIHAT ADALAH BERKAT
Aku menyusuri lorong kehidupan,
Melangkah longlai di jalan yang kelam,
Penuh debu, kotoran yang melekit
membusuk
Menusuk ke rongga pemikiran yang samar
Tika dulu kau penawar
Mencoret sejarah dalam bidang perubatan
Penyelamat tika kesakitan.
Namun kini,
bak racun yang mengalir, bagai jarum ditusuk..
pedih, perit kau beri
kulihat dua manusia
di atas pentas yang sama,
tapi lakonan watak berbeza,
persis terukir di wajahnya,
‘aku lepasan pengajian tinggi’
‘aku manusia berkerjaya’ dengan asap yang berarak di bibir mu
Bagiku,
Kau bukan lepasan pusat pengajian tinggi
Tapi lepasan pusat serenti,
Seperti Musa dan air susu ibunya,
Kemanapun arus membawa kehidupanmu,
Air susu ibu sumber hidupmu,
Tadahan tangan besar ruangnya,
Tadahan pilihan banyak pengaruhnya,
Tapi berbeza riwayatnya,
Akankah bugar sanubarinya?
Ya, jika semua menjadi bersih.
Tubuh sihat, badan cergas
Segak bergaya bak ayam jantan tiada celahnya,
Segala kemampuan dikeluarkan demi
kesihatan sempurna,
Tetapi seperti burung gagak terbang menguap,
Tatapan mata hati pada tubuh tanpa seutas benang,
Semuanya sia-sia belaka
Mulanya dari diri, keluarga, seterusnya masyrakat,
Khabar yang baik harus dikongsi dan dituruti,
Panduan yang terbaik berasal dari Tuhan yang Maha Esa,
Kaabah yang hidup adalah tubuh,
Memelihara menjadi amanah setiap manusia.
I create this poem within just 2 hours! why? because I like to delay my works. ya, that is fool me. and I didn't won this contest. actually, it is really drives me weak. I hate being a loser saya bilang tu! but Chris you're indeed eligible to deserve it. *those are my unachievement*
okay, swing my mode go to honey mode^^.
last October, we've a "Mega Seminar" at Ulu Dusun church. by Pastor Samuel from Indonesia. his picture. The "cute" one.
Pastor Samuel and Pastor Bendah.
the great pastor^^.
Pastor Samuel is the speaker for the Mega Seminar event. such a beautiful day with Pastor Samuel, even though, he never know me. just shake hand with him. miss you Pastor.^^.
and the closing of our Mega Seminar, we've a mini concert. and we've a guests from rugading Kota Belud. their group named Golden Light. I don't have their picture. sorry. but I have their MP3. such a beautiful voice, indeed.
on the mini convert, I'm one of the praise team.
furthermore, a baptism be held too.
my father was one of the baptized at that time, he wanted to clean and renewed his faith in God's eyes. my father is the best father, but he is not a perfect father.
when he hugs me, I cried.
Thank you my Heavenly Father.
You answered me through my prayer.
all this while, I pray for my father. keep praying for him. really hard pray for him till at the one point, I couldn't even bear my sins towards my father. I down, and stop praying for him. because in my prayer, his name always be in. but day by day, nothing was changed, that's why I stop praying for him.
Our Heavenly Father sees my father better than me, so that He makes his purpose in His time. God, forgive me.
the next story, I liked to become a composer.
but I don't know how to launch that, because I don't know how to make the minus one for my song. from my Facebook, I just requested them to help for that. and thank, because have someone give his hands for me^^. God, please give me this talent. I really want it for serving and praising your name.
Entitled : Hati yang berdosa.
the owner : Chrissy J.
composer : pen, paper, voice recorder, and my voice.
sign 1:your sleep patterns change,you feel restless but seem to have energy.
sign 2:shivers, crawling sensations, tingles on your scalp, feeling pressure on your crown, like someone is pushing down with a finger. flashes of great inspiration etc..feeling vibration around the head and ears.
sign 3:sudden waves of emotion. feeling sad, lonely, happy, angry etc for no reason.don't be hard on yourself. acknowledge as they arise and let them go with <3
sign 4:old issues keep coming back and at times you feel very lost, this is necessary & deeply cleansing.
sign 5:your physical body can change. your eating habits become more healthy.
sign 6:your senses increase in their sensitivity. your 6th sense opens up and you become much more aware of subtle energies.these are signs of spirit & your guides.
never fear!
sign 7: you begin to see the world with new eyes. you feel loving and at one with everything.
sign 8:you'll desire more and more to break free of restrictive patterns & old habits that do not serve you anymore.
sign 9:you begin to notice more & more signs that speak directly to you on a very profound level.
sign 10:synchronicity flows faster.these wonderful events flow when you are on the right path.
*sigh* u know how feel when you're had fighting with somebody? it is too annoyed! when I got the horrible feeling. I'll keep silent, that's me. I won't tell anybody. but in this case, I told my Neo. he knows me well, sometimes he gonna gives me some advise to keep patient. like usually the other people out there say "I'M HUMAN BEING TOO".. So do I. but its too horrible, when I've had fighting with my own FAMILY! am I so rude? ya, I and my oldest sister. may be I'm not gonna mention the reason why we're fighting each other. but what I can say here, I lost my patient. actually, my older and oldest sister. they've been argue me. If u were be me? did you always want be like that? emm.. probably they're kidding. but it too much. she says I'm her stipendiary. am I too annoying? till they dare say like that towards me?I knew, I'm not good enough to be their youngest sister. I don't have any an achievement to make them proud of me! ya ya ya.. I can go away from this house and go continue my education. but I knew our family's problem. I don't even have a diploma certificate or degree. just SPM.. that's why you all can argue me?I can go far with my SPM certificate.. but I want our family's burden getting more easy. I think I'm not sacrifice. just do the right way. okay, for a one day we don't even make a conversation. look each other. no way! when she came towards me, I will go the right side. I won't stand in front of her, then show that I'm upset. yes! I'm ego person. . . . . I do that because I already lost my patient.
what the thing make me realize. . .
holy bible. my light way.
indeed, I'm not good enough being bible reader. in one day, sometimes i didn't read my bible. (admit it honestly).but now I try my best,take a time to read my bible. I'll tell you how this thing make me realize. perhaps, among us couldn't see the benefits of words-of-God. when I read this verse
Hebrews 10:24-25
" and let us consider one another to provoke unto love and to good works:
not forsaking the assembling of ourselves together, as the manner of some;
but exhorting one another; and so much the more, as ye see the day
approaching"
Ibrani 10:24-25
" dan marilah kita saling memperhatikan supaya kita saling
mendorong dalam kasih dan dalam pekerjaan baik.
janganlah kita menjauhkan diri dari pertemuan-pertemuan ibadah kita,
seperti dibiasakan oleh beberapa orang, tetapi marilah kita saling menasihati,
dan semakin giat melakukannya menjelang hari Tuhan yang mendekat"
"mendorong dalam kasih" just like y'all know that God works in Love. after I read that verse then I answered a few questions. before that, I pray on my bed. I locked my door. then I start my prayer. but I can't even say a one word. my tears start came out from eyes. I couldn't even reach my mind. then, I feel I'm so small, tiny etc ... after that, I realize that I'm full of sins in my soul. I crying aloud, without any sound. you can imagine my situation? pity myself... I knee down. bow my head. and cry!!! regretful inside my soul. I make myself calm down, then start a prayer. my soul felt too warm. never been much better. I'm damn happy!!! now, we can laugh together.
fall in love. . . nothing is more practical than finding God, than falling in love. in a quite absolute, final way. what you are in love with. what seizes your imagination, will affect everything it will decide. what will get you out of bed in the morning? what you do with your evenings? how you spend your weekends? what you read? whom you know? what breaks your heart? and what amaze you with joy and gratitude? all those questions, seems so simple but hard to answer. . . then, fall in love, stay in love and it will decide everything! God either stayed in love to created all his creation.. how amazing His love for each of us..
I feel 2 months waiting its a quite hard for me, but the most hard task when what we've planned is not going well. how matter is it, I won't give up. because I knew God always stay in my way. He will make a way for me. I keep that words. next week,it will be my holiday. school's holiday, so that I'm really damn happy when holiday comes out. firstly, I'd planned want go to Keningau, but there's seems not a right decision because by the same time, Training LE also held on the same month. so, I'd changed my plan,I will go to the Seminar.indeed. but now, everything was change. I couldn't even go anywhere! I have a quite stress, cause of my frustration is I MISS BEING LITERATURE EVANGELIST! that's the main point. since I'd decided that I'll be Teacher, seems I'll lost something. day by day, I can feel it more clearly. yes, indeed! I lost something. that thing is too valuable for me. If I can heard God's voice, I'll follow Him whenever and wherever He asks it for me, but how can it be? Lord, I want be Your loyal servant even I'm the great sinner, You always be my greatest Father...
FAST student doesn't mean the faster student. I mean, em.. how I can explain it to you. something about spiritual and gospel. the activity is to memorize the verse from bible. have one verse, and two key words.and I'm interested with it. I've had done my first lesson from verse Jeremiah 31:3. let me show you the verse.
Jeremiah31:3
The LORD hath appeared of old unto me. Saying, Yea, I have loved
thee with an everlasting love : therefore with lovingkindness
have I drawn thee
Yeremia 31:3
dari jauh TUHAN menampakkan diri kepadanya,
Aku mengasihi engkau dengan kasih yang kekal,
sebab itu Aku melanjutkan kasih setiaKu kepadamu
that is amazing verse and words from God, He's so good all the time. and I've memorize this. yes, I did it well. hehe.. now, I'm the beginner at level 1 (survival kit), our admin for this an activity at church, her name is Slyvia Alfred, she's unemployer now, u know why ? because she comes back to Sabah, just wanted to give us this good opportunity, saluted her! she has her own objective for God's work. may God bless her! thank u very much.
okay now, let me tell you what mean if FAST actual.
I met him on November, 14, 2011. why I fall in love with this guy? because God's love shows us how we loved and needed each other
While I live - God sent him to me. my memories all about HE, him, me and people sorrounding me.
I'm blogging since 2010, with pleasure you may choose my date's memories.
Wednesday, November 7, 2012
so, welcome to My Memories. Just sharing, and you are reading My Memories. eventhough, I might not know who reads my memories. but I know it's you really cares about me. tQ again ^_^
"Chrissy" a name has given to me.
I appreciate everything about me, even about my nails, eyebrows and an each a little things had given to me by my Father. I've a lot spend my time in singing, I really do love singing.playing an instrumental things, my second choices. a moment that I feel so horrible, when I sing along with the music, I lose my beats. haha. one day, I'll go to the heaven. now, I'm waiting and keep my eyes on Almighty God. Readers, I want you to be my family when we are get together in the HEAVEN. say AMEN !
